MY ENEMY IS GROWING MY HAIR ON HIS HEAD.

I MISSPELLED “INTERNET” . . . BECAUSE OF MY IGNORANCE.


THE MORNING AFTER I POSTED THE BLOG I WAS AT WORK SITTING AT MY STATION, AND OUT OF NOWHERE THE THOUGHT CAME TO ME, “I THINK I MISSPELLED THE WORD “INTERNET” ON THE BLOG.” I ASKED ONE OF MY WORK-MATES, “DO YOU SPELL INTERNET WITH A “T” ?”

WHEN I REALIZED I HAD MISSPELLED INTERNET, I FELL INTO SUCH A RIDICULOUS DISPARE, I COULD HAVE CLOCKED-OUT AND GONE HOME - I FELT THAT BAD – AND, I COULDN’T SHAKE IT.

THEN THE FOLLOWING THOUGHT CAME TO ME:
BECAUSE OF A MISSPELLED WORD, I’M FEELING THIS WAY?

THIS IS WRONG.

I PAUSED, AND CAUSED MYSELF TO REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS.

THEN IT WAS LIKE IN MY THOUGHTS I SAW SOMETHING LIKE A “HAY-STACK.”

THE HAY-STACK LOOKED LIKE SOMETHING HAD CUT INTO THE LAYERS, AND LAYERS OF HAY, AND SHOWED ME THIS “NEEDLE”.

THEN SOMETHING CAUSED ME TO REALIZE THAT I HAD BEEN PUTTING LAYERS AND LAYERS OF HAY OVER THIS “NEEDLE” THROUGHOUT MY LIFETIME, AND NOW HAD COME THE TIME FOR ME TO TAKE A LOOK AT THE NEEDLE.

THIS NEEDLE WAS WHY I WAS FEELING THIS WAY.

AND I CLEARLY KNEW WHAT I WAS FEELING.

HERE IS WHAT I WAS FEELING:

OH NO!

“I MISSPELLED “INNER-NET”!

“THE JIG IS UP!

NOW, ENERYONE KNOWS! . . . .

YOU ARE A FAKE!

EVERY ONE NOW SEES HOW DUMB YOU ARE!

ALL THE “DRAWING- HAY”; . . . THE “CHURCH STUFF-HAY”; . . . THE “MUSIC-HAY” . . . HAS BEEN REMOVED, AND THERE YOU ARE . . . THE
REAL “YOU”.



BUT BRANDI, YOU KNOW WHAT -

WHEN I REALIZED THIS,
IT WAS LIKE I REALIZED IT IN THE CRADLE OF GOD’S HANDS.

IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN A SLAP IN THE FACE,

BUT IT WASN’T.

IT WAS WIERD,

BUT I JUST DIDN’T QUESTION IT.

IT WAS LIKE I WAS PUT IN A CERTAIN PLACE, AND THAT PLACE WAS WHERE I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE.


. . . . I TURNED, AND LOOKED AT ALL THE PEOPLE WORKING AROUND ME. IT WAS LIKE I SAW THEM FOR THE FIRST TIME - THE “HUMANITY” OF IT ALL - IT FELT LIKE A QUIET REALITY – GOOD AND RIGHT.


I WENT TO A CHRISTIAN FRIEND, AND TOLD HIM ABOUT IT. IT LED TO A VERY MEANINGFULL CONVERSATION. IN THE CONVERSATION, HE TOLD ME HE FELT THAT WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME WAS THAT I WAS “HUMBLED”.

YES.


I TOLD HIM THAT THERE WAS A SONG BY ONE OF THE “JUSUS FREAK” BANDS BACK IN THE “60’S” - I NEVER HEARD THE SONG - BUT I LOVED THE TITLE, THE TITLE WAS, “TODAY THERE’S BEEN A MERCY KILLING”.

THERE IT IS. THAT’S SALVATION LIKE IT OR NOT - A MERCY KILLING OF ONE’S SELF.

AND THERE’S JUST SOME THINGS IN OUR LIVES THAT THE ONLY WAY THEY’RE GOING TO GO AWAY IS . . . “DEATH BY KILLING.” . . . . NO RESOLUTIONS . . . . NO LOOKING FOR A CHANGE OF HEART - NO NOTHING – . . . . ONLY, BY “KILLING”.

HE SAID, “WE ARE OUR OWN WORST ENEMIES.”

I SAID, “YEP, MY ENEMY IS GROWING MY HAIR ON HIS HEAD.”

MAN, DID HE LAUGH.

HE SAID, “MY ENEMY IS GROWING MY HAIR ON HIS HEAD. MAN, AINT THAT THE TRUTH.”



I LOVE YOU, HONEY.


DAD.